Reckoning
make a reckoning
from "make a reckoning with someone" — to come to an agreement, a conclusion
a reckoning is a good descriptor for an inner shift
a shift that's not thinking
it's deeper than thought, it's a full somatic belief shift, bodily grok
reckoning is apt because this kind of shift comes from facing up to truths you learn about the world, reconciling new stories you're confronted with, and accepting that which you cannot control
when you realize something is a mask or a cope or armor or anything else you can learn to let go of it but also, with all of the other things that make up you, who are you under all of those? who remains?